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The Hideous Art of Unbecoming

Mo Alnaham

I was told to be wary of the tree of heavy

 

hearted vision, those lurid fruits leave

 

stark stains on lips, sour to a suckle,

 

 

Its sinuous roots draw voluptuous tale, but

 

I seek wonder and folly and throw myself

 

into brief eternity,

 

 

Heave the hand that strikes the hour and

 

sit in deferred resignation, the eternal Now,

 

the hum that sits below the throat,

 

 

But I know I must act, before I endlessly

 

walk in dreams, before the moment acts

 

upon itself, the shakiness of every pass,

 

 

Where amputated gestures steer me into

 

oblivion, slumped silhouettes, haunting

 

me with half-written dreams,

 

 

Nebulous dreams of an image I’ve yet to

 

paint, with resplendent colors I forage in

 

sleep, iridescent only in memory,

 

 

I reach out in desolate dreamscape, peer

 

through haze and reflect, bellow and

 

bid a well to cast it all away,

 

 

With its effervescent mysteries, bubbling up

 

trepidations, I can only pray for diluvian rain

 

to wash away my inhibitions,

 

 

Its shallow waters mirror all but self, backward

 

gazing, those specters of yesterday

 

whose shadows grow heavy,

 

 

Like stygian-soaked skin from stagnant streams,

 

of brine and wonder, privy to a fault, ’til I

 

can no longer breathe on the driest of lands,

 

 

So I submit, to wayward whim of earthbound

 

glory, sun and cicada, those pagan winds

 

where I lose my self, to a voice of clarity,

 

 

But daybreak falls and it’s deafened, by the

 

valiant thrum of hearts, eroding sense like

 

tides of attrition, pounding, pounding away,

 

 

Before a flutter and a fall, a tremor and

 

a lull, and murmurs of the heart become

 

echoes in the ether. . .